Body Transformation: From Insecure to Confident

I am a 20 year old third year university student. I am currently pursuing an undergraduate degree in Sports Medicine. I am also a certified personal trainer. However, health was not always such a big focus point in my life.

Like most females, I struggled with body image from a young age. So much so that my senior year of high school I was diagnosed with an eating disorder. I had such a distorted idea of what beauty was and was willing to risk my health in order to try to obtain something so unrealistic. It was an uphill battle and I finally realized I couldn’t win. I thought I was always going to eat “too much” and be “too fat.” (Of course, neither of these things were true. I ate far too little and became much too thin.) I have never felt weaker in my entire life.

I finally gave in and decided I wanted to be healthy. This was much harder than I thought it would be. I instantly started to put on weight. (Because I shot my metabolism to hell with how little I had been eating and with how much cardio I had been doing.) About this time, I started college. That first semester I needed a PE credit and the only class still open was weight lifting. Nervously (because I didn’t want to get “bulky”) I registered for it. That class was my saving grace. I started to learn what true strength was both mentally and physically. In that, I found peace. I found something that would pay off when I put work in to it.

Nutritionally, I realized that I needed to fuel my body properly for what I wanted it to do. My mindset shifted from how my body looked to what my body was capable of. In the midst of that, I began to see the physical beauty in my strength and have never been more confident with my body. The freedom I feel now is not something I could ever have even dreamed of, and being able to share that, with others who have yet to find it, is my motivation.

Paramore’s Let the Flames Begin and Part II are my top two motivational songs.

Some fitness figures that I am motivated by are:

Nikki Blackketter

Emily Duncan

Massy Arias

Ashley Conrad

Christian Guzman

Coming from an eating disorder, I do not track everything I eat because that reminds me too much of a really dark time in my life. I do however, try to make sure I reach macro minimums to ensure that I am getting the proper daily nutrients. I supplement my diet with Whey and Casein Protein, BCAAs, L-Glutamine, and Glucosamine. I also take cellucor’s C4 as a pre-workout and have recently been trying out the Super HD product.

For my workouts, I usually lift 4-6 times a week with the occasional cardio session and yoga 1-2 times a week. When in the weight room, I divide my sessions up by muscle groups and really listen to my body when deciding what to train each day. However, I like to work each group at least once if not twice a week. I also throw in some eccentric training and plyometrics.

This is just the start. I went into college as a fashion major and am now studying sports medicine. The more I learn about the human body, the more I realize how much there is to learn. I never want to stop learning and growing both physically and mentally. Post-grad, I want to either go to Physical Therapy school or get a masters/doctorate in Nutrition. Whatever direction I go in, I know that I want to help people find their strength and learn how to love themselves. I truly believe that that is what health is about.